Sleeping is something I like. It’s like an escape route for me. A well deserved escape from reality. Sounds immature doesn’t it? Because as soon as you open your eyes you and I know that reality will greet. Yet I wish I could hibernate because even if winter isn’t here, the one in my heart has always been present.
I feel I’m the weakest being on planet earth. I wish to hibernate to be kind to my mind, body and soul. But whatever you plan, all your thoughts will perish as if struck by a poisonous arrow right in the core. Just as daylight meets the eye.
My vision blurs, my head aches as though it has stored burdens as huge as mountains. My skin feel hot, as it was the source of all the fire in the world.It feels as though my ribs are crushing my lungs into nothingness. My lungs yearn for fresh air, though what they get is nothing less than smoke from wild forest fire. My heart feels heavy,darker and shrunken.
I struggle to keep eyes still as the pain shoots through my spine I am forced to shut my eyes as tight as possible. While tears begin to flow, a mile a minute.
Inky
No, it doesn’t sound immature at all. I hope and pray that things get better for you. I hope they’re days when you can’t wait to get up and breath freely and enjoy the sunlight with all it’s might.
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Thank you. Alhamdulillah I’m okay.
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You’re welcome. Yeah, you will be okay, InshaAllah. =)
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Doesn’t sound immature at all. I felt the same in the past. The thing to remember is that this will all pass sooner or later. It’s just one chapter in a bigger book of life, and you’re gaining something by going through this… Even if you can’t figure out what that is right now. Stay strong.
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That’s true. Alhamdulillah ala kulle haal.
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Itβs not immature at all. We all want to escape reality. Itβs just bitter and frustrating. Pain everywhere, physical,mental, emotional. It drains you. Itβs the same with me. I sleep because I dream. And all the time Iβm dreaming, itβs an escape. No matter how short. But I hope life gets better for you. I sincerely do. Itβs just a phase, and God has so many great things for you planned!
Itβs always great to hear from you. This one was right in the feels! Ik I need to bring my blog back to life, but itβs hard! Iβm trying, and I will eventually. Soon IA!
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Yeah sleep is a GREAT ESCAPE. I can totally agree with the dream.
Yesss will be waiting for your posts. Thanks lovely person.π
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definitely relate-able, i enjoyed reading this!
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Thank you!
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Exactly how I feel these days! I’ve always been a very light sleeper and find it hard to wind down, but nowadays I could hibernate for weeks and I have no control over my eyes or brain. Ugh. Maybe it’s just your body’s way of saying ‘Please rest!’ and take some time to recuperate, fix whatever is going on inside, emotionally or mentally. I hope you’ve managed to find a balance in your sleep since writing this post π
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Yes, probably. Alhamdulillah I’m fine.
Life is just weird, sometimes the one path that you consider you as your escape route, becomes the one that traps you.
Alhamdulillah ala kulle haal.
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