Sleep — September 4, 2018

Sleep

Sleeping is something I like. It’s like an escape route for me. A well deserved escape from reality. Sounds immature doesn’t it? Because as soon as you open your eyes you and I know that reality will greet. Yet I wish I could hibernate because even if winter isn’t here, the one in my heart has always been present.

I feel I’m the weakest being on planet earth. I wish to hibernate to be kind to my mind, body and soul. But whatever you plan, all your thoughts will perish as if struck by a poisonous arrow right in the core. Just as daylight meets the eye.

My vision blurs, my head aches as though it has stored burdens as huge as mountains. My skin feel hot, as it was the source of all the fire in the world.It feels as though my ribs are crushing my lungs into nothingness. My lungs yearn for fresh air, though what they get is nothing less than smoke from wild forest fire. My heart feels heavy,darker and shrunken.

I struggle to keep eyes still as the pain shoots through my spine I am forced to shut my eyes as tight as possible. While tears begin to flow, a mile a minute.

 

Inky

Bookish Q &A ( reply to Safiya, J.S Chefri) — April 9, 2018

Bookish Q &A ( reply to Safiya, J.S Chefri)

A book I wish I could read again would be Jannat kay Pattay( leaves from heaven) it’s an Urdu book.

It had alot to offer.You’d never get bored of it. It was one of the books that alot of people recommended.

A character that reminds me of someone I love.

Idk. I think it’s more of something a character said that reminds me of someone. You know?

The last book that made me cry

I think the last story I read was Aao Hum Pahla Qadam Dhartay and It made me cry. I usually don’t cry but I don’t know, maybe I could just feel what the character was feeling because of the beautiful writing by Umera Ahmed. The book really talked about how people treat other and, how the most unexpected things happen and shock you for life.

A book I had to push myself to finishย  Girl on the train. I think it was someone here on WordPress who recommended it. ( Safiya sis was it you? ๐Ÿ˜‚)I just couldn’t keep up. Perhaps it was because of the different time lines.
I know alot of people found it really interesting. To me only the first half was captivating.

A book I could not finish.
Usually when I start a book I just have to finish it. This is one of the reasons I think before buying a book. I can’t control myself from reading. It shocks me when I hear for instance my friends have books that have been sitting on the shelf for like two years.

And the mountains echoed was one book that I didn’t finish. It was really interesting in the starting but something came up and I couldn’t finish it. If I get a chance and convince myself I’d love to finish it someday.

A character that I could relate toย 

“Thereโ€™s so many characters I can relate to because when Iโ€™m reading thatโ€™s how I connect with the book most of the time.” Exactly my case. I think I feel that I cab relate when characters say something and I’m just like that’s exactly what I’d say. It’s the words and emotions that make me feel connected. At times a character would be over reacting or being dramatic but to that character and myself it seems like it’s a normal reaction.ย  Yeah weird.๐Ÿ˜…

 

A character I really disliked

Do you have any idea how sad my answer is for this? ๐Ÿ˜ญย It’s been soo long since I read a book that I can’t even think of this. But Summer in umm 34 days? In sha Allah will read alot then.

An ending I wish could have been different

Refer to the previous answer. ๐Ÿ’”

If you’d like to share you’re answers for these questions you can answer them in the comment or as a post like I did.

Thanks Safiya from her blog link here for this interesting post for book lovers.๐Ÿ’™

 

Inky

Photo 33 — November 16, 2017

Photo 33

Sometimes when we take pictures we fall in love with tiny details that the world might fail to notice.

Just like that in life we should be thankful for the little things that others might notice.

Say Alhamdulillah. ALHAMDULILLAH ALA KULLE HAAL.๐Ÿ’š

The photo I’m attaching is…

Cute plant coming out of a tree bark. (No edits.)

of a HUGE tree which is bench shaped. and this tiny green miracle is growing in the middle part of the bark.Isn’t it lovely how our delicate little pops out of the rough dark bark? Just notice the differences! SubhanAllah.๐Ÿ˜

P.S I’m really happy with this picture of mine. It was alot of hard work and alot of frustrating moment. BECAUSE of the WIND! And it’s SO TINY, therefore it was extremely hard to focus.ย  (And don’t steal my picture, please. <.<)

Specially thanks to my sister. (We want for a walk,ย  ๐Ÿ˜› her patience MashAllah and words of motivation helped me, honestly.)

 

INKY

Winds of change — November 13, 2017
Memories-Chapter 3 — September 14, 2017

Memories-Chapter 3

You can also read MEMORIES INTRO and Chapter 1. Chapter 2.

dividerOnce upon a time….umm half a decade ago? During holidays my mother insisted that I get up from bed because I had slept enough.There was no use of protest because she wouldn’t give up and make sure that I’m out of bed. So I thought she wants me off this bed and I did that.And still half asleep walked silently into her empty bedroom and fell asleep there.As I fell asleep my thoughts awakened and ย were running wild and I was assembling words in my dream after I had made up two sentenced that made a little sense, I couldn’t stop.Thus, a poem was born in my head.

However, the only problem now was to remember the poem.We all know that there are tonnes of dreams that we forget as soon as we get up. I didn’t wish to forget this.The sound of ย my mother calling me distracted me from my thoughts and concentration of trying to save the poem in my mind.Finally, I got up and with my eyes half closed went to my bedroom and without doing a thing grabbed a piece of paper and clumsily searched for a pencil and jot down every word I could remember.Some may think that was a clever thing to do nonetheless no one knows how horrible my handwriting was plus, the amount of time it took for me to actually decode the text later one.Anyway, here it is.I won’t explain it I’ll let you wonder.

P.S it was a gift for my parents.They were proud of it. ๐Ÿ™‚ (Obviously it’s kiddish but it is also raw.My sister actually suggested that I share a picture, but I don’t want your eyes to get a heart attack by looking at my handwriting. You’ve welcome. ๐Ÿ˜› )

As told by the rose

Don’t let the thorns fool you
I am a fragile bud

Just give me some time to settle in
and have some fun

Surely after all this
I’m sure a day will come

I will be all grown up
with petals like pink bubble gum

Though my thorns will be pointy
they won’t matter much

Ad by seeing the petals
they won’t be remembered much

I’m sure a day will come
when all this won’t be the same

My thorns won’t be stiff and strong
my petals won’t to look the same

Also that I’ll look wrinkled and dry
and my petals begin to fall

don’t worry about me because
that is what’s going to happen to all

even though they might be better than
or they may not be good at all

This ‘is’ what will happen to all

l just leave me and let me fade away
and don’t worry about me at all

But before all this I want you to know

I want to ask for forgiveness from you
for doing wrong to you all

Because you are the best parents anyone
could ever wish hope to wish for (at all)

*Be sure to remember me in your prayer
And In sha Allah! we’ll meet in heaven
where all those who ask for forgiveness before they die are.*

INKY

Dark & Light — May 23, 2017
Reigning back focus — May 22, 2017
Longer — May 15, 2017

Longer

The longer I stay awake, the more I walk,
The more I walk, the more my legs ache!

Desperately begging for me to stop,
But my racing thoughts won’t allow it.

Until I shut my eyes tight,
And enter the world of dreams.

Where midnight madness ends,
But nightmares begin to scream.

The Uniquely Me Tag — May 10, 2017

The Uniquely Me Tag

Hey guys!
So Tehreem nominated me for this. ๐Ÿ˜€ I thought I should do it before I forget. XD
Here goes first the RULES:
1. Thank the person that nominated you for this tag and link to their blog.
2. Write as many things that are unique to you as possible.
3. Nominate up to 10 bloggers or as many as you like.
4. You can take this tag as seriously or non-seriously as you like.

I know I have probably done a few posts like this. So I have no idea how ‘unique’ this post will be. ๐Ÿ˜›

1- When I was small I wanted to marry a rich prince so there were chances of me hopping on to a spaceship and going to the see the moon! XD
2- I can not drink coffee.
3-I am definitely supposed to be studying right now. Or wait I deserve a break but not this long. ๐Ÿ˜›
4-I have sooo many books to read. The list keeps expanding.Just waiting for SUMMER! ๐Ÿ˜€
5-I took a nice butterfly picture and it turned out nicely.I will definitely call it an achievement no matter what anyone thinks.

6- I still haven’t put up an ABOUT ME page. XD
7-I have always liked plants and flowers.But I felt scared what if I can’t take care of them. Back in maybe November I think…a lovely friend of mine had given me a plant with lovely flowers.ย  โค โค I took care of it till today and it really taught me about life.I know it sounds weird that a plant taught me something, but it really did. ๐Ÿ˜ฆ Sadly, now I feel it is going to die.Please pray for my plant! Plus a friend of mine gave me a huge flower bouquet Alhamdulillah those flowers are doing great. ๐Ÿ˜€ย  โค
8-I have felt best when I managed to bring my day dreams to reality.
9- While people would be busy taking selfies, I’d rather take a picture of the sky. โค
10-I believe that sometimes we get things we don’t deserve.I mean that in a both good and bad way. ๐Ÿ™‚

My nominations:
Anyone who is reading this right now.Haha!

INKY

 

THE BLUE SKY TAG — May 8, 2017

THE BLUE SKY TAG

THE BLUE SKYย TAG

sounds so interesting right? ๐Ÿ˜€
And it reminds me of one of my posts which talks aboutย Why is the sky blue?

So yeah I have been nominated by the ahmazing bloggerย Scottish Muslimah. Thank you so very much! And guys you must check out her blog, you might regret it if you do not. ๐Ÿ˜›

The rules for the tag are as follows:-

* Answer the 11 questions given to you.

* Nominate and tag 11 people.

* Give 11 questions for your nominees.

Here are my answers to Scottish Muslimah’sย questions:

Do you prefer hot or cold weather?

Cold because it is something new where I live. ๐Ÿ˜›

What are you most afraid of?

Alot of things.One of them are cats and dogs. Sadly. ย ๐Ÿ˜ฆ

What is your favourite animal?

Horse ( I guess.) I also like fishes. ๐Ÿ˜›

What is your favourite smell?

Umm, flowers. I think Jasmine and Lilly of the valley.

Are you an early bird or a night owl?

Definitely an early bird.

How many people have seen you cry?

Alot I mean since when? Like this year or umm well yeah anyway alot.

When was the last time you laughed until it hurt and what made you laugh?

Hmm it has been a long time.

What book or film made you cry the most?

I’m being so honest, I really don’t think there wasย  a movie that made me cry alot. But when I watched ICE AGE (the first one) the first time I cried in the end!

What is your favourite time of day?

Morning! When the sun is almost out.

If you could have any career or job you wanted, what would it be?

Maybe a Teacher? Maybe a writer? I really don’t know. XD

If you were in a room with Donald Trump what would you say to him?

Say to him ‘Kaif al haal?’ Which is how are you in Arabic and see his reaction. XD

Nominees:

Miss Tanveer rauf
Beparvah
Hia Khan
Ashley
thari
Ryan Stone
Ahmed Saiz
Shreya
Tam
Lili
Yusra

And my questions are:

1-What is one small thing that can make you smile?
2-What was the name of the last book that you read? How was it?
3-Alot of people NEED coffee or tea to begin their day. Don’t you think that it is right if someone says that they should be more dependent? ๐Ÿ˜›
4-If you were to learn a new language which one would it be?
5-Are you an early bird or a night owl?
6-What do you like most about blogging?
7-Whatโ€™s your best childhood memory?
7-If you hear the word beautiful what comes to your mind?
8-If you think of the word terrible what comes first in your head?
9-Are you thinking I am out of questions now? ๐Ÿ˜›
10-Would you rather go the moon or under the ocean? Explain why!
11-What country are you from?